Incredibly, no progress has been made since my last entry nearly two months ago. He cancelled the last appointment, and has not rescheduled it.
All the progress we made has now been lost. There is never any mention of the homework we have. There's no physical intimacy...nothing beyond platonic affection. He'll make comments occasionally, but the words without actions are meaningless.
And the drinking is back. He keeps changing the rules about when and how he can drink. There's really no point in knowing what his rules are. They are useless lies he tells himself to justify doing whatever he wants.
In the meantime, I've taken my life back. I'm pursuing my own self interests now. I've given up enabling his.
Unless there is a radical change that prompts him to become accountable for himself in our relationship, he has blown his last chance.
I'm done.
